It’s funny how easy it is to miss resting—even when I have ‘down
time’. It seems that my mind is often
constantly busy with different ministry things, interpersonal things, things
that need to get done for ministry events and the dojo, things that need done
at home or in my life in general, and more besides…. Often even when I am doing things that could
be restful, my mind is pretty occupied. It’s
not like it is necessarily stressful—in fact, most of the time I enjoy the
things I am doing and the things that I am thinking about. It is just very different from truly stopping—and
truly resting.
When I truly stop and rest, I do not think about anything
that I need to do or let there even be a tentative schedule in my head. I treat it much as I did when I was a young
kid and had an evening free—I did not think through what I had left to do on ‘back
burner’; I did not worry about tomorrow or what needed done tomorrow; I did not
even worry about things that I could do or ‘should’ do that day. I just rested and enjoyed the moment—savoring
all of the little things around me and enjoying them.
Tonight, as I rested in my living room, different things
would stick out to me. The old couch
that I was resting on is definitely part of a bachelor pad with four guys
living in it; it is old and not super ‘stylish’, but when I stop it is
fascinating to look at. It has designs
of farmhouses, waterwheels, and leaves in it along with certain fibers that
make parts appear shiny… It must have
been a fine achievement for the artist, designers, and workers who built it in
its original day. The padding that is
heavily worn still works and makes it comfortable to lie on as warm air from
the heater blows over my feet. There are
actually so many interesting little things in my house, all designed to please
the person who is using them or looking at them that I rush past or use without
noticing during my daily rush to ‘do things.’
I miss the intricate carvings in the end-table made to wow guests, the
artistry and design that went into the guitar poster on the wall, the work that
had to go into crafting and finishing all of the wood in the house for it to
look good for those who lived there…
There is so much that is literally fashioned expressly to be appreciated
that I just don’t take the time to stop and appreciate because of my pace of
life. Making the time to stop and
appreciate and enjoy all of these things at least once a week (on my Sabbath) actually
helps me be more thankful to God and His providence. What crazy things! I have clothes that are comfortable, food
that is chilled but hat I can heat, water that I can flavor as tea or chocolate
or any number of other things. In my
house I have cheeses, crustaceans, and canned vegetables—a tremendous variety
of food to choose from. Our society has
given us so many little pleasures that I almost never TRULY stop and notice
when I am ‘rushing’… Stopping and
appreciating them fully as I partake in them (while resting) is good medicine
for me—emotionally, physically, and spiritually. It adjusts my speed and my attitude and makes
me look at things through a different lens and perspective; it is a lens and
perspective that is at once more natural to me, and also something almost
foreign because I usually don’t take time to operate in this mode. What an interesting thing, rest is. What an important part of life…
It is odd, but resting is actually a lot of work for me, at
first. My mind doesn’t want to shut
down, my sense of urgency and pace wants me to use this ‘free time’ to ‘catch
up’ on several little tasks so that I can rest more easily by not having to
remember to get them done—but if I do that I will ultimately never truly slow
down into rest… I often have to pray and
ask God to help me to let go of things into His hands (which I need to do
anyway), because by focusing on ‘letting go’ I continue ‘focusing’ and don’t
actually let go. Once there, I have to
just let rest happen naturally and naturally start appreciating all of the cool
little things around me. It’s not that I
just lay there like a bump for hours on end necessarily; rather, whatever I do
once my mind is in ‘rest mode’, I try to do appreciating every part of it and
being thankful for every part of it—listening to my coffee machine percolate and
being amazed by how good the coffee smells and tastes and how warm it is in the
mug in my hands, enjoying the texture and flavor of cheddar cheese as I have a
small afternoon snack, enjoying the comforts that allow me to read my book or
rest with my girlfriend, thanking God for the Kansas wind and brisk air and all
of the life around me when I am outside…
It varies, but the part that is the same to me is that when I truly
STOP, then I can truly start resting, listening to God, and letting God refill
me—which I desperately need.
I hope and pray during this busy Christmas season that we
can all force in the time to genuinely rest as God commanded in the Old
Testament—and that we continue to stop and rest throughout the year. Though it is increasingly hard in our
society, I think we need to rediscover and re-initiate the lifestyle of healthy
balance and include genuine rest.
Without it, I think that we lose much of the beauty, joy, and
perspective that God intends for us…
Thank God for another good Sabbath. :)